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Well the reasons I've always felt adopted are that my parents are older, my Dad just turned 80. I've alwys felt like I was an obligation to them, like they didn't really want me around. There have always been alot of inconsistencies when they talk about my early life, like they say my brother was around and he says he was in a different country. My parents have always compared me to my older brother according to them, everything I do, say, think etc is identical to what he does. Then about six years ago I looked in the Library for my Birth Notice to try and feel more connected to my family. I couldn't find one, when I asked my parents about it they started yelling at me (they are normally very quiet and reserved people). Since then anytime I have tried to talk to my mother about anything to do with pregnancy, children and stuff she gets a weird look on her face and leaves the room.
Once I asked her if i was adopted, she looked at me like I was something she scraped off her shoe and turned around and walked away, she barely spoke to me for three years after that which is very out of character. That is why I have had to send away for the certificate to know for sure. If I do get my certificate I'm not sure how I could bring up the subject with my parents without making them angry. They are the only parents I have known I don't want to lose them, but I feel like there is a big blank over my head that needs to be filled in.
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