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I have been in reunion for almost 9 months. I haven't had any counseling but sometimes think I need it. I find myself struggling to find my role in bson's life. I know I'm jealous when amom is around. The evening before he went to the prom he was having trouble with his flower, both amom and I rushed over to help him. It was very awkward. I get jealous when I hear him call her mom. When he talks about me to my son that I raised he always says "your mom". I miss him more now than before reunion. I want to pretend that the past 18 yrs has dissolved and he's mine again. I want to say "thanks aparents, I'll take it from here" Am I nuts? I don't express these anxiety's to anyone but my husband who assures me, they are normal feelings and as long as I don't let them interfere with bson's well being everything will be fine. I am mature enough to know that I can't expect bson to call me mom or even have him feel like I'm a mother to him. He's only known me 9 months. I am basically a stranger. But there is that little part of me who wants to be a selfish brat and have it all. Are these similar issues to what you are dealing with?
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