[mom2GRLC]

It was the same with my situation. If i wanted to go to a councelor I'd have to see my Doctor and tell them I was dealing with depression and they would likely put me on meds and give me a medical diagnosis then counceling.

Not only would it have to be in my medical records/medical report for DHS. When i have gone to adopt in the past one of the questions the judge asks is if you have been diagnosed with any mental illnesses and if you are on medication/counceling.

Knowing they ask those kinds of questions and knowing I am not one that could lie about it....I choose not to see the doctor and to just deal with stuff on my own.

The sad part is....I wasn't having depression and insominia just because of me.....it was because of the very stressful time I had just had of almost losing my daughter and trying to maintian an open relationship with her birthfamily that was seeded in anger, sadness and resentment towards me and the adoption.

After a year and a half of struggling every day with it....I finally have worked it all out and am at a much better place and so is her birthfamily.....but it was real tuff getting to this stage....especially without the help of professionsals who could have really helped move things along much quicker to help me sort through all those feeligns I was having.

So thanks to these forums you guys have been my help along the way...to pull me through and now I couldn't be more happy and secure in my relationship with my children or with their birthfamilies.