[LizzieM]

I am going abousolutely insane. but i've read a lot of these forums and i feel like that is kind of normal given my situation.

here's my update. two and a half weeks ago, through a friend of my aunts, i found out the names of my maternal bgrandparents. last friday i sent them a letter, last saturday they called me, and tuesday we went to dinner.
they were talking to my bmom and me. it seemed she was kind of upset. the whole thing didn't really go as planned. so i wrote her a letter. mailed it overnight on friday and she called me yesterday. i wasn't here and she left me a lovely message.

i called her back and we only had a chance to talk for 20 minutes. her in-laws are in town. but everything went really well. she was very happy to talk to me. she said that she has always thought about me. she is even talking to her husband about trying to fly up here in three weeks. she hadn't even talked to me and was already planning this.

so i know i am very lucky, but here's the thing that's driving me nuts. she said that she would call me again after her in-laws left. she was supposed to call me tonight. well it's now 8pm and it looks like she's not going to call. i have been waiting for this all weekend.

i am so frustrated. i just don't get it. she seems like she wants to get to know me.

aaaaahhhhh ...i have barely begun a reunion and i'm already going crazy. i feel like this occupies my thoughts most of the time and its driving me nuts. i'm also not thrilled that i go from being completely overjoyed one second to crying the next.

this sucks......i figured others could relate, so i thought i would post this to other's who could understand.