[Niclayson]

I am having a difficult week and just am wondering if anyone else has experienced this. We went through YEARS of secondary infertility (as you can see by the ages of my kids)....I have every issue imaginable (endo, PCOS, one tube, etc). I have had too many miscarriages....

3 years ago we stopped trying. We contemplated adopting for 2 years and last year, decided that our son was waiting in Guatemala. We brought him home in March and although we got off to a very rocky start with attachment issues...all is well and we are so happy to have our family completed.

Now the surprise....I'm pregnant (probably like 3 weeks). I'm finding myself NOT happy about it. I'm dreading another lose. I have a hx of ectopics...so yesterday started the serial Beta's and ultrasounds....it may be 3 more weeks before I even know if this pregnancy is viable. I have told some family members and close friends (mostly because if it is ectopic I will be needing surgery probably again and will need help)...the ONLY one who didn't make the comment "Well, aren't you glad you adopted! It always works out that you get pregnant AFTER you adopt."...is my friend who also adopted from Guatemala.

The comments are making me nuts. Like I brought my son home as a good luck charm to pregnancy. And nobody understands that I'm not thrilled about being pregnant right now. Ugh....anybody else go thru this???