[kirstenb]

We matched with the most wonderful young lady in March through parent profiles. We got to know one another and were getting more and more excited every day to welcome a baby girl into our family (we adopted our son four years ago). After being contacted by many emotional scammers, we felt honored to be chosen by this young lady. We kept in contact through the last two months of her pregnancy via phone, IM and email. The last day of April we received a call from her boyfriend telling us to get our cell phones ready because baby may come two weeks early!! I had a sub lined up at school to take over and my folks were ready to fly in. Monday came and went, no call. Tuesday, the same. We were confused as to why we hadn't heard from either of them, but on Wednesday the phone rang. The caller ID showed it was our social worker. I knew something wasn't right...I mean, shouldn't we be getting a call from the boyfriend from the hospital?? That was the plan.

Now we've had potential birthmoms change their mind later in the pregnancy and we knew the risks, but I couldn't have ever prepared for what I was to hear. The sw told us flatly that B.'s friend had called the agency. The baby girl was stillborn...at 38 weeks. B didn't know how to tell us, she was devastated, as you can imagine.

May was the saddest month in our lives to date. B. remains a close friend in our lives and she is doing better but has relapses of grief. We may be getting ready to close the door on adopting a second child...which makes me so sad. I always dreamed of our son having a sibling. We took our profile down off of parent profiles and now don't know what to do. My heart is so sad. We miss our baby that we didn't even get to meet. We wanted her and had dreams for her. My faith is strong, but I can't figure this one out....

Anyway, just wanted to share my story. Adoption is such a blessing.
Kirsten