I just wanted to welcome you to the Forums!! There's a great bunch of people here who will have tons of advice and shoulders to cry on if you need it!
You had to make a very difficult decision, but no child should be with a family who is not 100% on board, so you totally made the right decision for YOUR family. There is a family who will love that baby unconditionally and they are where he/she belongs. Try not to feel guilty, I know it's hard
again, welcome!!