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[quote=Cmara I guess what I'm trying to say is that I really believe that she told so many lies in her life that she herself didn't remember what the truth was.
Am I making any sense????????????????? Hopefully one day you will get the answers you are looking for. I hope so. Just know that WE hear you and understand![/QUOTE]
Hi Cmara
That first part from your quote really hit home with me. It seemed like she wanted to share every bit of info with me and seemed really excited to do so. But then I kept getting different stories. I guess she didn't notice the inconsistencies but since I was so engrossed and hanging on just about each and every word she said that I noticed them. Maybe she has just lied for so long that she honestly (no pun intended!) doesn't remember or has told so many they are getting in the way of each other and believes each one!? Oh lordy I don't know. I will try to go over my paperwork again and see if I can make heads or tails of them. I put them away awhile ago because it was giving me a headache and stressing me out!
One of her lies was she (BMom) said she never knew what state I was Adopted into, only that I was Adopted into the USA. Then proceeded to hand me paperwork that clearly show she was searching my state for years before our reunion. A couple were even dated just 3 months before we were reunited!! Many letters she wrote to the state for any info on me and possibly one bbrother. No other state was on any other papers I ever seen. But believe me if she would have searched others she would have shown me and went see I look Here and There for you, but couldn't find you. I don't even think I questioned her at the time about that one. I had so many questions I just let it slide and let her talk, which she seemed to like to do. LOL Kind of like my rambling!
I hope one day to get the closure I need, but that may not be for a very long time if at all.
I don't know how to ever Thank You and the other poster for talking to me about this. AND for not jumping on me for having the agner and taking my OP in the wrong way. Like I said in that one I wasn't posting to hurt anyone or to call anyone a liar about how or what happened to them. I don't feel this anger is good for me ( lol no duh!) and I seem to go through periods of such stress about it and it consumes all my thoughts and energy. Then seem to be able to put it on the back burner for a little while. I guess that's one reason some refer this all to a rollercoaster ride. Well I for one would like to get off now but can't seem to do it. I have siblings I've never met and some I'm pretty sure don't even know I exist-others may. Of course I know my 2 BSisters do. And I miss them each and every day. I had always wanted a sister and here I have 2 !! Sorry about the book! It just seems to be pouring out of me right now. Maybe that's a good thing but I don't know maybe it's not.
Anyways Thank again {{ Hugs }}
Motoxmom
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