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Originally Posted by katlyn
I knew that adoption was the right choice for me, my mother was a single parent and was doing the best she could to raise myself and my sister, I could not put the burden of caring for my child on her too and I knew that I was unable to do it on my own. I knew as well, that my daughters bfather was too young to be any sort of parent and that his parents were too lax in there parenting skills for me to trust them to help.
I just knew that I was too young and too immature to care for another when I had not yet learned take care of myself, I couldn't deny my bdaughter the chance of having two parents to love her and give her everything she needed. I don't just mean worldly goods, I mean healthcare, food and a stable home with a roof over her head. I don't know if this is what you were looking for, but I know that for me, once was all I could handle, I could not have placed another child. It took all I had to get on with my life past that point, two years of therapy, a wonderfully supportive mother and sister, and friends. There is still pain, but it is definitely better. I'm sending you a great big hug, and I hope that you can move on from here without all the anger.
Michelle
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Hi Michelle
I probably butchered your post with the quote thing. LOL Sorry 'bout that. I just wanted to Thank You for sharing your experience. I does help! And Huge Thanks for the Hug that brought tears to my eyes when I read it and again now as I write this. I hope too that one day I will be able to get through the feelings of anger. I didn't always feel this way. I grew up always knowing I was adopted and from Canada. My parents were always up front with us (both my Abrother and I were adopted from different families). When I lost her (my mom) it was a Huge blow. One day she was SO full of life and pretty much the next she was gone. I was just always greatful to my Bmom that she gave me up for a better life. It was only after finding her and talking that nothing she said made any sense and the lies started rolling. I know she has lied about some things but other things I'm not sure if they are out right lies or just not remembering.
Thanks again for taking the time to reply to my post. And Hugs right back at ya!