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I went through this too after adopting our first DS domestically when he was two days old. DH had just gotten a new job and had to work 14 hours the day after DS was placed with us, then had to leave for a week-long business trip the day after that! During the day I was okay, but as soon as the sun set every night I was so overwhelmed and felt absolutely alone - and the worst part was feeling SOOO guilty about being unhappy. I finally had the beautiful child I had waited for, what was wrong with me? I can chuckle now about the fourth or fifth day, when I sat in my new rocking chair, holding an absolutely perfect baby, sobbing and asking myself, "How do I tell DH that we have to give him back?" I think part of it was me grieving for the "me-centered" life that had just died, and this new, child-centered existance was such a change - I was totally unprepared! NO ONE had mentioned that I might feel this way - how I wish I had known!!!
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