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Originally Posted By Stephanie

Sept. 4th 1988, at 11:50 a.m. I gave birth to a beautiful 8lb 2oz baby girl, I named her Justine Richelle. With profound grief and agonizing pain I placed her for adoption, I was 18. I tried for the first 6 mo. to "undo" the adoption, but couldn't find any help, I never had a "support group", never met ANYONE else who had placed their child, and I was left to feel as though I was no longer of any "use" to the family she was placed with, after the first year. For almost 14 years I have endured, and shed millions of tears for the loss of my daughter. I managed to go on with my life and now have a 10 yr old son and 5 yr old identical twin boys. I don't REGRET my decision, only that I couldn't be the one to raise her and be there for her every first in life. I pray her adoptive family has loved her as much I have loved her EVERYDAY since the day she was born, and always will. No other pain in life could compare to the pain of making a decision like placing a child for adoption. To all of you that have searched for and found your bfamily and were rejected, it's their loss, not yours. I pray each and every day, my bdaughter will someday have a desire to find her bfamily, until then, I count the days.