aray, I read your post and even started a reply but had to shut down my computer so I would not submit it. Do I think you are horrible for thinking adoption? No, not really although I have to say you entire post did make me sick to my stomach. You say that you have thought about this a lot and I believe that you did. I only hope for your sake, the babies sake and both your children and the fathers children that you find someone to talk this over with. You said that you have not talked about this with your children or his since you are not sure what you are going to do. That is a very big burden on children aged 3 1/2 to seven. They are all to young to understand what you are feeling, talking about or the whys and wherefores of this kind of a decision. However they are not to young to remember later that they have a younger half sibling out there.
You need to also think about how you are going to feel every year on this childs birthday! How are you going to cope knowing that you gave your child away? Not knowing if he/she is happy? What are you going to say to this child when he/she finds you later? Please think this through!
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