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I understand how you feel. Our daughter's birthmother is not living a very safe life and I worry about her every minute of every day. Although I don't talk to her as often as I would like I do stay in contact with her family. I struggle with the same feelings of guilt sometimes, why does my happiness have to be shadowed by someone elses sadness? Just yesterday I was talking to birthmother's grandmother who has had an extreamly hard time with the adoption, not becasue of us but that this is the only great-grandchild she will ever have. She told me that last week when she was in the hospital and they didn't know if she was going to live, she told her family that the one thing that she didn't have any regrets with and was at total peace with is that we had the baby! This still brings tears to my eyes but I am so glad to know that although she is sad at the same time she is happy about the adoption.
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