Hi Carissa! Welcome! Again, like others have said, I read your post and so many things sounded familiar. Two years ago, I was fuming at the nurse at the RE's office, trying to figure out how to pay for all the labs not covered by insurance, TOTALLY absorbed into the whole infertility treatment process. Needless to say--that does something to your head after awhile...You can't often see any other options. Once we decided to adopt,I felt like I gained a little of my life back. People didn't know how to react to our news we were going to adopt. DH's family never talked about it, or if they did, verbalized their fears and prejudices. Our friends and various family members had to be educated, but still didn't believe things wouldn't be the worst case scenario.
FAST FORWARD to today. I am sitting at my desk missing my Woobie, whose sweet face is looking at me from his picture on my bulletin board. We finalize next week. My WHOLE family is totally gaga over this wonderful creature. I no longer hate pregnant people
, and can participate in those hated conversations about babies that I used to avoid because I didn't "belong" there. I swear sometimes, I forget I didn't give birth to this child myself.
Use this board to help vent about all the stuff it takes to go thru the process and to gain hope for what is to come for you and your family. eventually, all the BS you have to go thru becomes somewhat a memory, but it all helped you to find the child that will be yours. And you will be so glad.