[DaniJ]

Totally understandable feelings!

Something that I am working on in my life, which may help ease the pain of the situation, is this concept called "sympathetic joy"
To quote the article: "without consciously realizing it, we may be convinced that the world contains a limited amount of joy, to that the more one person has, the less comes to us. But rarely does a gift taken away from someone else land magically in our own lap....Swamped by envy, however, its hard not to feel as if (what we want) has swept right past our out-stretched arms and into anothers."
When I read this article, it really struck a cord with me. I'm Not telling you how to feel, or what you are currently experiencing is wrong... heck, they wrote this article for a reason: it applies to a lot of people! I Just thought I'd pass it on as a tool which may be useful in easing your pain. Believe me, I do empathize with the pain, and perhaps that is why I want to offer a tool to soften the blow a bit.
Peace and Love~
Danielle