[Bug-n-Bears-Mommy]

I have worked every day of my life since I was 18. Of course I have had vacation and sick time, but I have never NOT had a job. With the boys DH and I have spent the better part of the last year enjoying our relationship in the parking lot of my office when we pass the kids off as he is coming off chift and I am starting work.

Well, he just got a job that will afford me to stay home because it also has great benefits. That was one of the big reasons I stayed working too because my employer offered outstanding bennies. This is a whole new step for me, and I am scared!

I have never been at a job as long as I have this one, and my employer is fantastic. BUT, the hardest thing I do every morning is kiss my babies and go to work. I went thru so much to try to have a child, then the whole adoption process, I can't give up this opportunity.

For those of you who have made this decision, did you feel torn too? I mean I have never NOT provided for myself as far as bringing in a paycheck. Were you scared too?