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We are 5 months waiting, no referals. Contact has been very minimal from the state. We are certified foster/adopt 2 children ages 5-12. I had been very sure that this was God's chosen path for us to walk. Now, I am beginning to doubt. I have always said that even if we were never chosen, we have walked this way for a reason. We have used much of the information we learned. Maybe that is all that was needed from us. But, the human part of me must say that I am a getting a little depressed over not making any progress yet again, not being chosen yet. It took 3 1/2 months for our homestudy to be read and us to be certified, we just hung in limbo waiting. Now we wait some more.....

Please pray for our family to have reassurance and peace in what He has planned for us. I know to trust in Him, His plans for us are greater than our own.

I know many of you are in the same place...waiting, wondering, second doubting... If this is not meant for our family right now, I pray that we will find out quickly, so we can close the door and move on.

I feel so weak somedays, like I am in need of a big flashing sign saying "This Way, Melissa!". I wish my faith never waivered, that I had the strength not to second guess what the Holy Spirit is trying to tell me.

Sorry to ramble, just one of those days.....

Melissa