Thank you everyonefor your replies.
I am just so angry and lost. My bmom just goes on with life like my family does not exist. My bsister calls me all of the time to tell me about what the "family did" like Easter, Christmas,weekends etc, and we are not even thought of. I know she doesn't mean to hurt me because of her disorders but it does. I figured when I met my bmom she would want me. She did at first until I started asking questions and then the answers were all lies and I found out. It was me who pulled away after this but come on. I still have not met my bgrandmother or cousins but I guess they don't care either.
I guess I was under the inpression that once we met things would be good and we would develop some sort of relationship but she could care less how I feel.
Out of sight out of mind I guess.