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Originally Posted by littlebitty
But what joy to be able to be an answer to someone's prayer. I cannot think of a more beautiful gift to give. I relive the feeling of having my child every day with my 2 year old daughter. To be able to give that feeling to someone else... woah.
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This could have been ME writing this six years ago -- complete with two-year-old daughter, depression and seperated from my husband and thinking that giving a nice couple my child was a call from God.
Now I can't bear to mention my birthson and the word "gift" in the same sentence. All I can say about the 'gift-giving' train of thought is remember that your baby is not asking to be a gift. YOU are all the baby wants and needs.
The "gift-giving" was very much a symptom of depression for me. My life was not going the way I imagined it would be to welcome a child in to it and I felt quite worthless and a failure. I felt making another couple's 'dreams come true' was making good.
Nothing, but NOTHING turned out how I imagined it would.
Lucy