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Is there such thing a steh baby blues when you don't have one. I am having major depression symptoms since yesterday being Mother's Day. Basically can't stop crying. We have beenin and out of this process for 4 years now , we had a group of 5 then 3 then now since 2003 none. Started with one agency last January as in 2005 they didn't agree with sib adooption switched to new one, didn't agree with number requested might i say this was all after classes and studies then got this wonderful agency we have now however my study has been submitted to states, primarily Texas and Mass over 100 times We are looking for up to 4 of any race and gender 10 and under how much more basic can you get. We have even been told we have to much experience and training to get low needs children. I am just so sad 4 years into this and nothing. I am ready for domestic I swear only hubby says we can't afford it as we already have $5000 into homestudies and I am a stay at home mom. Today has got to be my lowest I swear.