[MeganLynn]

I am 21 and pregnant. The baby's father was a friend of a friend & I was irrisponsible for 1 single night at a party (which isint me at all I am really responsible). I am not at all a "party girl" but do go out occasionally. I don't even know the father's last name but I hadn't been with anyone for 5 months before this 1 time occasion... I just found out I am PG. 6 weeks. I also had Infectious Disease testing & am waiting for the results. I am going mad right now!!I have alot of support I guess I am just so scared that I can't do this on my own. I refuse to fully surender my child.. I just won't do it. My baby will need his/her mother & I will need my babby. I already feel this strange feeling of love for this tiny little peanut who is in my belly.. as irrational as that might sound... sence I am only 6 weeks along and my "baby" is hardly anything at all yet.

What about 2nd parent adoption?? Could I keep all my rights to my child but allow a single man or gay male/couple to 2nd parent "adopt" my babby and become a dad with out giving away my baby?? I came from a highly disfunctional family & from what I understand the baby's dad is nothing but a alchie & a drug abuser & it is very likly that he spiked my drink as having a 1 night stand is soemthing that I have never done before. I don't know maybe I jsut had too much to drink?? Point it I do want my child to have a dad but not that type of dad. I know first hand the type of anguish having that type of dad is to a child. I know I am getting ahead of my self... I am only 6 weeks along & any number of things could happen from this point... I have complication or a miscariage.. or god forbid the baby might have some deformity that requires abortion. God I just don't know how to think straight right now.