[braedensmommy]

I am feeling down today. I know this may sound crazy but for about a month I had this "feeling" that I would get out of PGN on May 10th. Actually, I lost a baby and when things are very stressful in my life I dream of her. I know these are dreams (actually I truly believe that she is an angel for me), but in my dream my little girl told me that we would get out of PGN on May 10th. I was holding her hand on the beach. (For some reason, we are ALWAYS on a beach) I have been pretty good with waiting but ALL day today I would jump when the phone rang. Now I am sitting at my computer, and feel so hopeless.