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Trusting God...
Hi all -- I'm new to this forum and truly seeking some spiritual help. My husband and I lost our baby girl when she was 10 days old in early 2004. We have been unable to get pregnant since. The grief I experienced when our dd died was one of the most intense emotions I have ever had. Now we are going through a local adoption process and as the birth mother's due date is drawer nearer (June), and I am realizing that this may actually happen... I also am starting to fear that she is going to change her mind. What I am struggling with is that while I trust God for the final outcome (that it will be Good as His Will desires), I am having a hard time trusting Him with my emotions.... what if He lets me endure the kind of grief this summer like I did when we lost our daughter? I am so scared. I would do anything to avoid that pain again.... even though I know He is soverign in all things... I just don't think I can survive another loss like that again. Any advice - or simply some prayers - would be appreciated. I have all kinds of verses going through my head that I know should relate but I'm having a hard time reconciling my heart.
Thank you.
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