|
Daisy,
You also could be experiencing a little self-protection device by mentally preparing to distance yourself from the child by contemplating a negative outcome.
Basically, you're scared! A very normal fear of probably every adoptive (potential or actual) mother! It's okay to feel that way.
For some, they this even happens early on the process (like in mine) when you find yourself procrastination over finishing up some required paperwork or getting back to your agency about something during your homestudy.
I think a journal just for you would be good! I know I always tried to sound upbeat and positive when writing in the journal we were planning to keep, but then I'd email furiously about my doubts and negative thoughts and ventings to a friend who had been through the process before us. It helped a GREAT deal!
__________________
StorkWatcher
QUOTE: "Just like a woman who gives birth forgets the pain due to the overwhelming joy when she holds the baby, an adoptive mom also experiences that same joy when she holds her child for the first time." - Kat-L, forum member
|