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Everyone is right. I absolutely want to keep the child and have no intentions of putting him/her up for adoption. He still seems to think the abortion is the way to go but I already had a miscarriage earlier this year and was heartbroken. I can't give up this child. About the married man, I really don't expect anything from him. I don't expect him to leave his wife for me or do anything. If he wants nothing to do with the child I am prepared to tackle that feat and raise the child on my own. I know that my family and friends would be there to support me. But honestly I might sound like I have everything figured out when I am really shaking inside. Scared of raising a child, not knowing what to do, scared that my family will reject me, my child, or both of us for my relationship with the child's father. There's so many things that I just don't know how I will handle and because I am somewhat embarrased and afraid to talk to people about the relationship and pregnancy I have been keeping everything to myself which seems to be horrible because it is eating me up inside.
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