In my head, I knew that there would be adjustments & struggles, good days & bad, lots of sleepless nights, & tons of questions with no "real" or "right" answers. Knowing what could happen, and actually living it, are 2 very different things.
The truth is that nothing can prepare you for mental & physical toll of months of sleep deprivation due to an upset baby
Nothing can prepare you for the overwhelming peace & love that comes from a sleepy child who reaches for you & then trusts you to keep them safe as they fall into that deep, boneless, sleep that only small children can do.
I knew I would have most of these feelings, the good, bad, funny, frustrated, scared, happy, silly, whatever you can thnk of. They are just much more intense than I could have imagined.