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Better than expected: The paper chase was so overwhelming, that I went to China a little flat on the emotion side. By that I mean the process had become "work" for me with preparing the dossier, moving my living arrangements, planning the details of travel to China. By the time I flew to China I was spent. The day before I held my baby in my arms, I was uncertain that I felt anything. Then when I held her for the first time, it was magical. I felt indescribable love. I felt so certain that this was my baby girl. Now, 7 months later I feel the same certainty every day. I never knew adopting a baby could feel so complete.
Most difficult and dissapointing part of the journey: I hoped our travel group would be tight knit, and our girls would be friends forever. There were eight families in my group, and we did not really gel as a group. While most families sent Christmas cards, and there is some talk of a reunion in September (I hope so); I have had minimal connection with these other families since returning in October 2005.
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