[bizzee]

I was just wondering if infertility issues play a roll in our reaction to the waiting on the adoption process?

I think for me, it's just a matter of a fear that if it doesn't happen NOW, it isn't going to ... the process and waiting seems to be reflective of all of the testing, the process (shots, thermometers, what have you), and the ultimate negative blue line on the pregnancy test.

I think all the infertility issues and subsequent emotional damage has made me less trusting of the adoption process and has clouded my belief that I am ever going to be able to hold a baby that I know is mine in my arms.

Of course, this is something I had to work through when I started this journey and I know it WILL happen, but there is always that small, creepy little piece of baggage in the background...