[crayons]

Just my opinion but the waiting is hard enough, I can only imagine how it would feel for an adopted child, to want to just be acknowledged and no answer, when he or she knows the person received the first letter. Yes first moms have a lot of feelings to deal with and the pain is pretty bad but children do not ask to be born and adopted, we as first moms should not withhold acknowledgment and information, the waiting is so hard on both sides, I wish we could all ,meet in the middle, forgive, share and ease each others pain. A lot of first moms are scared to death to face their children, they did not get to raise but loved more than you know, they feel like failures and afraid of same judgement they received when the system emptied their arms of their babies, so many of us were told, our babies needed better people to raise them, we were not good enough to raise our own babies, we all handle it differently. This letter is very understandable but maybe write one when you're in a very good mood, send it and keep the other one, you have a right to say how you feel, maybe put it in your Journal and see how your feel down the road. Best wishes, I hope this is turns out the way you would like it to. Hope I didn't offend, it's hard to put feelings about all this in words.