Hey everyone... before i say anything... i want to thank this website for making me a feature post of the month. When i read the news letter i felt so proud!
ShrBear: Thank so so much for all your posts on my thread! You are so very lucky to have met your bparents after all that searching, some people are not that lucky. About the fake situation: My family, besides my parents and grandparents, dont like me very much and never have. For some reason they always have looked down on me. I was the problem child of the family when i was younger. I was dealing with Bi-Polar disorder and extreame ADHD. I also stole alot of things and actually got arrested for it. I use to really care that they didnt like me but now it doesnt even cross my mind. They (my aunt and uncle) actually said some pretty cruel things to my parents about me and now they dont talk anymore.
Rapunzel: I totally understand what you are saying... i know i should not put all my hope into people that i dont even know. Yes, i might be dissapointed... but i might not be. I think its better to hope for the best and see what happends. Theres one main reason why i really want to find my Bmom... and that is to ask questions... i have so many of them!
Mimi: Thank you for your advice on taking my search slowly. I am actually still deciding what to do. I really want to find my parents... but then again im scared... I understand that my mom might be very poor, might still be on drugs, or might even be dead. Thats the main thing i scared of. I actually have a recurring nightmare that i finally find out my moms name and im getting ready to go find her. I go downstairs and start reading the newspaper and her name is in the obituary. Iv been having that dream pretty much once ever two weeks since i turned 17. I have talked to my therapist about it and tryed to get to the root of the problem, but it just wont go away.
As for everyone else who has posted: thank you so much for your advice and your time!!! Keep the ideas comming!
Much Love,
Kathryn
