[IYAOYASMarineWife]

How do I deal with my JohnPatrick's first birthday coming up? It seems like I have so much going on right now, even the slightest bit of indifference sends shockwaves right through me!

I am still searching for the way to tell my husband about him. I don't think right now is appropriate. In my heart I don't think I will ever be ready. But, in my mind I know that I must tell him eventually, so 17 years from now he is not scratching his head and wondering where this young man came from. He probably wonders why my "best friend" who he has never met keeps sending me pictures of her baby; Who just happens to look just like the rest my family.

I am really looking for someone who has been down this road. Someone to guide me, because I am throughly LOST!

PLEASE HELP...