[dyardley]

We are due to fininsh our homestudy next week, and our USCIS fingerprinting is on Thursday this week. I'm also about 3/4 of the way through gathering all my dossier paperwork. I am having second thoughts now. I don't doubt I would love to adopt, my dh and I are even having dreams about our daughter to be. My dilemna is I have recently returned to work after working from home with since ds was born (he is now 4) and now dh is working from home and taking care of the day to day parental duties.

As a household we are making far less money (though I think we will still qualify) but I am beginning if my "I know it will be hard, but we can do it" attitude is really going to fly. My dh and I rarely see each other as he has his own business and leaves the house when I get home. We would have stay at home care for our dd to be, but still little time for dh and I.

Has anyone gotten to this point and decided to postpone the process? I know the homestudy and fingerprints are only good for 18 months, and with the future of the Guatemala program in question, this isn't the best time to be having second thoughts.

We have also already told our 4 yr old that we are trying to find a baby sister (I just can't keep a secret).

Having a really bad weekend trying to make a decision, any advice would be greatly appreciated.