[annaguat]

I understand what you are going through. Last October my mother died weeks after being diagnosed with terminal cancer. She lived long enough to see the referral pictures and video of her new grand children. She knew their names and said she loved them. I am crying just thinking back on everything. I profoundly miss her. When we got the news to travel I wanted to call her. I know she would have gotten little outfits for them. She would have wanted me to update her and would have asked me how the adoption was progressing and how the visit trip was. She was the one person in the world that I know would love the babies as much as we do. It is very hard. My mother left me with a strong sense of loving my husband and family. She wants me to go on and live life but I feel this immense void especially now we are getting ready to pick up the babies. If I would have know that she was ill we would have never started the adoption process at the time we did. But now it all worked out this way I am very glad as these little ones bring such hope, joy and healing over the loss of my mother. I hope you will find strenght during this time that is immensely joyful but also brings out the bitter sweet of missing your beloved sister. For me my faith in God and support form loved ones has and is what is carrying me through. Hugs, Anna