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Hi Elley,
OH how I can relate to your feelings, sister!!!!!!! I've been feeling the same things that you're going through for more than 11 years now, treatment after treatment, IUIs, IVFs, etc........ natural M/Cs, and still no baby, and the feeling never goes away, though it did diminish a bit when we started the adoption process a couple months ago, but again, when I hear any delay, any road block, wham!!!! they come back!!!!! "Why me???????", when I see no reason because I feel I've been a good human being, sympathetic, helpful, etc......... and never done anybody any harm!!!!!!- And of course the jealousy, bitterness is natural!!!!! I who had everything that others craved for, now am struggling so much and others have moved on, way past me and I feel ashamed as though it's my fault (though the doctors seem to find none), and nobody understands!!!!! Well, I really wish we could be told the reason for what we go through life, but when I realize what's to happen will happen, I'm just sad but try to go on. That's all we can do, right???? I'm so sorry that you're going through these negative emotions, but we understand here because we're going through the same things too!!!!!! I hope and pray that we all find peace and complete our families soon!!!!!!!! Although it's so sad that we can't have the genetic, biological connection we all crave for, I'm just about ready to become a Mommy, and I really hope that God hears my prayers for all my friends who want to complete their families,
Take care,
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