Last year, my sister got married, and within 6 weeks she knew she was pregnant (they were trying)-expecting at the end of November. Together, they had 3 already.
A few months later, someone let it slip that my SIL was expecting in early December.
Finally, my other SIL became pregnant due in April.
Throughout this, we were going through homestudy and WAITING. The tug of war on my emotions was tremendous.
But we do not control how things turrn out, everything comes in its own time and way...
Out of the blue in October, we got the call- a 3 month baby boy-we met the birthmother and were placed together in 2 days. Our baby came FIRST.
And we soon learned to be even more aware of our blessings.
My sister's baby was born healthy in November.
My brother and SIL had their baby in December as planned, but he had a birth defect that will take a few surgeries to correct. And most sadly, my favorite brother and his wife learned that their baby had a condition where it did not form a brain or a skull. He has yet to be born and will not survive more than a few hours or days if he is born alive.
I never wanted anything bad for these families, but I certainly was jealous. Now, I feel that God brings things in his time. I also still feel that we all go through struggles that defy understanding.
I know the wait is all-consuming. I spent lots of time researching all things BABY. The book Baby Bargains and internet searching can provide hours of baby-foucused positive distraction. I even bought a few baby things- girl and boy, different seasons- figuring I could give it to a niece or nephew if I could not use it for my own baby.
I wish your family and you happy, healthy babies.
sissy