[Elley]

Well, here we are, almost 1 1/2 years later, still no baby. SIL is pg again, other SIL is pg again, and I'm thankful, don't get me wrong, I only wish God would send us one. I've prayed for both of them to get pg (they wanted to), and I've prayed for us. Has anyone out there felt like you have done everything you could, been as good as a human can be, and hoped and prayed and still left with an empty cradle? I just dont know what God wants me to know or learn or see or live through before He sends our child to us. I don't want to become bitter, but I feel it creeping up and it's hard. I'm also getting so sick of being the one who everyone thinks is just ok with not having a baby, so they will say all those little stinging remarks and know I'll just laugh it off. I swear, the next person who says that it's a good thing that they're repopulating the Sunday School because numbers are diminished is going to get it.