If you feel that you need to go back to church then do it! Your life will be enriched, fufilled, and more fun with the things you will learn and the people you will meet. I encourage you to attend a church that is "alive". I know that this is a wierd term but make sure the church is growing - spiritually. My husband is a youth pastor- we just moved to MO a little over a year ago- and I LOVE our church. I have never met such friendly, loving, generous people in my life. Our church and the members has helped us see more of God's love. Like today for example... we live close to where the tornado struck and one of out church member's garage, barn, and the out side of the house was severly damaged. There were over 60 people out there cleaning up, cutting wood, burning wood, donating dumpsters, a backhoe, and many more things that I did not see go on. Everytime I looked up to see everyone working I wanted to cry. God is so good and provides everything we need!
I can understand that you have had a bad experience with a church. I have had bad experiences with churchs too. But you and I have to understand that God has to be first in a church - not people. And when people take God's place it can get kinda scary.
I hope you the best as you continue on your journey. If you ever have any questions please feel free to ask!
Jamey