[shellysarita]

I understand where you are coming from as I had my heart set on bringing home a young baby. I was hoping I would be one of the lucky ones to bring home a 4-5 month old. After a year of 4 pregnancy losses, I felt it was my turn. I'm sure a lot of the women here feel that way - we've paid our dues through heartache, now let's get to the good stuff.

I actually struggled after accepting our referral because it took almost a month from when we accepted the referral until our paperwork was in Guat. and our referral was a month old when we accepted her.

I came to realize that this child needs a home and she doesn't get to choose her agency, her attorney, or her parents or foster parents. It isn't her fault that the process is slow at times. It isn't her fault that her DNA test wasn't done until she was 3.5 months.

If you decide to continue with this referral, I highly recommend you visit. This made it so much more clear that the adoption process wasn't about getting a little baby, but about this child that I am absolutely in love with. She is the daughter of my heart and I will wait for her. She's so worth it (but I still want her home, like yesterday!).

I hope these responses are not offending yoiu or making you feel inadequate as an adoptive mommy-to-be. I think these issues and doubts are common and you were very brave and honest to share them with us.

Love, Shelly