[Shoshana]

" Could it be a unconscious psychological reaction to those "dreams" of parenting a daughter, that I thought I had let go to? "

Jen -- I should admit that I've certainly never had this experience and cannot begin to imagine what it even feels like!

However, you know that I am far from adverse to resorting to psychological interpretations but in this case, I just can get there. I'd say that instead of an unconscious psychological reaction it is an inescapable biological response!

Chuckle chuckle (oops, didn't mean to sound unsympathetic!) Good luck. Perhaps you should foster MORE so you habituate to the intensity of the emotional/biological reactions!