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I gave up my son in 1970. I had brain surgery at the age of 9, in the year 1959, due to a rare disorder I was born with. I was also born with PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). I now realize that both conditions can cause depression and anxiety, and the brain thing did cause learning disorders due to the surgery, along with depression, anxiety and ADD. I am blind to the left in both eyes as a result of that surgery, too. My husband died in 1997 when he was 47 after getting heart failure due to another rare disorder. He got the disease in 1987, when he was 37. I never could figure out why I was so sad!! How stupid was I? Only recently I found out what went on in my brain, since my mother refused to talk about that, along with my baby, and I never knew what I know now. I researched all of it, and I know some of this mess is the result of real disorders in my body. I am not an alien, which is how I always felt and still do at times. I am glad I found this site. Thanks for listening. Sorry for sounding like I was whining, and I will try not to do that again. But geez!?!? Enough is enough. I do so miss my son, though.

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