[wannabamom]

Hi all,

I'm a hopeful adoptive parent and of late (last 2 weeks) I've been thru' so much stress- DH's project got over and he had to be out of town for a while, - Home visit was done- stress, stress, more stress, DH had interviews, my job is moving to another place in the same area, but we don't know when and my boss has been cranky (when not????)... well, anyways, I'm feeling very depressed and down because there's a big dilemma in front of me- DH says he wants to change countries, right now we're signed up for an International country, but DH wants to do domestic or another country (where there're no babies available from and the wait is more than 2 years...) DH is from there, but I'm so confused!!!!!!!! I can't take this stress anymore!!!!!!! [img]/images/smilies/wallmad.gif[/img][img]/images/smilies/frown.gif[/img] Agreed that he feels close to his origin, and if we adopt a kid from another country (totally difft. race, etc... than both of us), there may be a lot more problems, well, I'm going through mixed, confused emotions. I've always wanted to be a MOM for so long now - 10+ years, and after so many years of IF Tx, (unexplained), we were so glad to adopt and I was so happy, until recently when we're going through so many changes!!!!!! Thanks for letting me vent, but I don't want to wait for 2 more years and get an older child (with DH's country choice), but I'm in conflict about adopting and doing justice to a child from difft. race???????? Am I alone in these feelings??? Please offer any suggestions or words - I'll be grateful!!!!!

Thanks for hearing me out,