[Maggie Beth]

Originally Posted by naominoel

My husband and I lost our first child in August at 11 weeks along, and my due date is coming up on the 20th of February. When we decided to adopt I was thrilled that we would finally be parents, and the process has moved extremely quickly in our adoption. I'm just struggling though because my due date is coming up and I'm finding myself having a difficult time allowing myself to get excited about the girls we're adopting (a newborn and a 4 year old from Africa). Maybe its just that my grief is still raw (and pronounced because of my due date), but I'm just wondering if anyone else has gone through this or has thoughts. I want so much to feel excitement about our 2 girls we'll bring home, but in the excitement, sometimes I feel like people forgot or are forgetting our baby we lost. Its like the joy is bringing up pain and disappointment. I have a shower in 3 weeks, just 5 days after my due date and I'm afraid I won't want to celebrate (because I do want to celebrate our adoptions). I'm just afraid it will be too hard. Any thoughts?

We picked up our son from Guatemala exactly one year to the day from one of my miscarriages... I felt like our child in heaven was blessing our relationship with our new son. Let God walk with you through your pain... our pain can be a gift, because it reminds us of the love and excitement a new relationship can bring. I will be praying for you...