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My dh and I both always knew that we would adopt. But, we always thought that we would have a biological child first. But, after 3 1/2 years of infertility treatments we prayed and felt that God wanted us to adopt. So we did and that is what brought us our very special Abigail Elizabeth. She is truly a gift from God. Baby girls don't stay on a photo listing with agencies long. She was 6 weeks old when we accepted her referral. Well, while we were doing infertility I had this song that I constantly listened to. It was my prayer and I had faith that I would conceive but God had better plans for me. So, some of the lyrics are:

Sometimes I get discouraged while I walk this lonely road. I think that God has forgotten me. Then, he comes and speaks these words to my heart, If you only knew what's in store for you. You would understand while the wait is so long.

Well, I had not listened to the song in a while and we were driving down the road we decided to listen to the CD we had not listened to in a long while. When this song came on I started bawling and looked in my backseat to see my precious angel and I knew this was why the wait was so long. I began to think, that the last fertility treatment we just felt and knew and believed we were pregnant. But, I told my dh that we were but not in me but in my heart. Because it would have been the month her ** conceived her.

My husband was speaking at our church a couple of weeks and he was speaking about how sometimes we have faith that something will happen. Then, when it doesn't we think that God has forgotton us. Then, he used Abby as the example. He said "we knew we were pregnant, but God worked through this and still gave us a child. Because that was our prayer that we would have a child" He also said "if we had conceived we woud have never met Abby". Then, he played the song and came over and took Abby from me. He said this is faith. He said " I could never love a child more than I love this one and couldn't imagine not having her in our lives". Well, there wasn't a dry eye in the church.

Those of you waiting...I hope this will be encouraging to you. My prayer is that your babies will be home real soon.

I remember the day that we got out of PGN I gave the initials a new meaning Praise God Now.