Oh, MJ! Your feelings seemed very reasonable and understandable. I'm so glad things turned around and your bonding reached another level. NO MORE GUILT
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For me, I know my little one didn't cause my depression, but her withdrawl from me and regression sure triggered the stress. Mostly it was the people in her life all had more control over her, our lives, and schedule than we did. I feared losing her even though she was legally free, but not finalized. Luckily I found support (I'll always be grateful for) to get tough and be firm about my feelings. Once I was able to take my control back I started to feel less stressed and that eased my depression. *Long hard sigh.....*