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I'm glad you brought up this subject because this is something I went through and felt a tremendous amount of guilt over. My son did have some drug withdrawls, but I think the hard time I had with depression in this case was over the fact I feared losing him. His bfamily went back and forth in trying to decide whether they'd pursue adoption of him or not. He was placed with us because at the time it looked like an adoptive case. I was torn between needing to love him as my son and guarding my heart to lose him. Even when the case was looking better, I wonder if I held some subconcious resentment for him having family that wanted him? It sounds terribly sick now, but I don't feel that way anymore.
Things can get better!
MJ
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Mommy by adoption to 2 beautiful boys, one born in '01, the other in '03. Now mommy to a new little girl born in '08, full bio to our oldest son. This adoption is in progress. We adopted through Oregon's DHS.
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