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Melissa,
I've been thinking about this a lot lately, because of our match being so close to her due date.
I have tried to imagine how I might cope if she decides to parent. I could never be upset with her for chosing this. Just sad for us.
I've grown to really care for this woman, and her boyfriend (pbdad) and hope we could stay in touch after if this were to fall through. However, I'm not sure they'd want to. And, in all honesty, I'm not sure if I could really stay in touch for long. I guess sort of how a pbmom feels she may not know if she could stay in touch after placement until she's living it. You know? But selfishly, I would want to stay in touch with B. She's become a good friend to me.
I would love to know if their child is happy and healthy. I would never ask them though. If we were to lose touch, I would just pray and hope for the best. I wouldn't feel like it was my place to call them. Does this make sense? I almost would fear not being welcome. This family has been very welcoming, don't get me wrong. But I guess I'd feel like I'm just a stranger to them again. I can't explain it. The only reason they have any interest in talking to us, at least for now, is to talk about plans for the open adoption. I feel as if B is a friend, but not sure she'd consider me one yet. So I think I'd feel like nothing to them again. I can't express it very well I don't think. I'll stop now. :-)
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