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Originally Posted by sugarbabysmommy
My heart was broken last Spring when my mom died. Some days I see the other side of this grief, other days I am burried in it, choking on it... I wish I was better able to answer your questions. I don't feel stronger, yet, I don't like that each day my child's smile saves me, it's too great a burden for another person, thank heavens babe is too young to know.
Too smell my mom's perfume warm on her again just after she showered would be magical and so very painful. Sorry I don't have more perspective to be uplifting.
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sugarbaby,
I am so sorry for your loss (HUGS) I have definetly been there. You are NOT alone. Looking back, I can't remember the first year at all. My sister & I were literally consumed & wracked with grief. I feel your pain.
Weeks after my mom passed, my father freaked and gave away a ton of her clothes. He also threw out a bunch of her journals. Thankfully, he didn't give away everything. My sister & I were able to salvage many things.
I have all of her perfume bottles in my closet. When I am feeling her loss, I take out her favorite ones and sniff them. It helps a bit. I also have some of her favorite shirts. I sniff them too. There is a tiny bit of her "smell" left on them.
Then as I start losing myself in her memory, one of my children usually bring me out of that funk. They start calling for me. They need mommy. I am pulled back to reality.
As I am writing now, my little girl is pulling & patting at my arm. She needs and wants my attention. So I will sign off and give her a great big hug!
I would like to continue this thread as a support system. Feel free to continue to journal, write down thoughts, feelings, poems etc.
We are all here for each other.
God bless,
Julie
It is time for me