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I am a 'Motherless Daughter' in the physical world but not in the World of Love and Memories..
My mother would lose her battle with breast cancer on Dec. 30, 1998.. She was my one and only mother. I had 52 years of my life with her..but to this day I miss her. Sometimes I have nightmares (as old as I am) and have woken myself up with me yelling..'Ma! Ma!' There is not a day since her passing that I have not missed my mom.. My mother was also mildly szchophrenic for most of her adult life and I wouldn't have traded her for the world for another mother. I did not have an easy childhood, my mom and I would have many heated moments, some very sad ones and some hilarious ones.. I miss my mother's most beautiful singing voice and her great sense of humor. I miss being able to pick up the phone and talking to her.. I miss my mother's voice, I miss the occasional hug. But so long as I am alive, my mom is alive in my heart and memories.. And modern technology has been a blessing.. I have home movies and can see and hear her talk.. I can also share these movies with her great-grandchildren.. No one should ever be forgotten..
Sometimes I feel like an 'orphan'.. as she never really told me who my natural father was, she took that to the grave with her.. But I am not angry with her for that anymore.. I have learned much about her and myself since she passed away.. Seems we tend to learn more about life through death..
Mom is with me everyday.. She is me, I am her... She is embodied in all of her children, grandchildren and ggchildren.. Mom is still loved and missed..
Shadowdove
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