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Hi Jenna, I think I will give it a go as well.
If I knew then what I know now I'd never let you go.
I'd hold you tight and love you as the precious wonderful baby that you were. I would cocoon us from the thoughts and pressures of the outside world and surround myself with positive supportive people.
I would ignore the fact that your birthfather wanted nothing to do with us. So what, his loss. I would not waste my energy trying to change that. Of course I would make sure I got financial support from him. But if it was going to cause us too much grief I'd let that go.
I would have stopped worrying about money and the future and lived for the day. I would have enjoyed everyday with you as you grew up.
I would be a great mum. It would have been a privilege to watch you grow.
I would open my eyes and my heart and realised the wonderful male friend who was there beside me throughout my pregnancy really wanted to be more than a friend.
He would have made a great dad and partner. We could have had a good life together. I wish I could have seen that.
I wish I could turn back time...
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