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Originally Posted by marimari
Jackie...I am sorry to hear that your dad passed.
Am I understanding correctly that the similarities between him and your son are what keeps you somewhat distant from your son?
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I think its his way of life.. He lives on the edge the way my dad did.. Takes chances that scare the living daylights out of me.. and I am so very different.. I turned my back on that way of life..
I can remember once when my dad and I went to one of those executive job places.. in Florida.. I was supposed to be high powered and fake it.. I was as scared as a person can get..
Its all lies.. Its all working other people in order to earn a living..
I can not do that any more.. when I lost my bson.. when I walked away from my bson.. I went back to that life.. That executive life in which faking it was the prime directive..
“Who are you?’… “I am a fashion artist.” “I am an airline stewardess..”
Oh goodie!!!!!
When he visited my dad.. my dad said to him..”What is your product?”..my bson grinned and told him.. so similar..
Maybe that is my big anger.. He should have known his grandfather. But I am the one who messed it up.. I am the one who had a baby out of wedlock.. out of the executive world.. The I am better than you world..
I can not face that wall.. I do not have the emotional stamina..
But I will call him.. I have found his cell phone number.. Dad passed on two weeks ago.. I intend to join your thread soon and tell everyone.. But right now I like to sit in the edge of this place.. coming and going to distract..
Jackie